First off, I apologize for posting two times in one day. I know there is a rule out there, somewhere (a few places probably) in the blog world, marketing world, and the whole online world- saying that it is a HUGE mistake to post more than one blog a day. I’m not sure if you have noticed it already (if you are a regular reader) but something I have an issue with is following rules or sticking to guidelines. It doesn’t work with me. My inner rule has always been; if it feels right, do it. Don’t waste time questioning it, or wondering if it’s the “right” move or decision.
I feel like a lot of what I write is relevant to right now, especially for me. So, although it may make sense to write a blog post, edit it, re-edit it and then maybe edit one more time (to make sure it’s as close to ‘perfect’ as you can manage on your own)– I feel like by then, it’s not as powerful or relevant as it would be as if I posted it immediately. This is just what feels right to me. Of course if it’s a blog post exclusively on a recipe, then it makes sense to make sure it looks and reads the best that it can. With these journal entries, though, I feel like it’s now or never. I just want to get it out there. It’s like a new way of purging (haha, I just realized that). That’s just me.
One fantastic lesson that I learnt from my mother (some of the many words of wisdom she has blessed me with) is there is no right or wrong choice. There are just choices, and their consequences. The word ‘consequence’ would always send shivers down my spine (if you know my mum then you know why; her accent & voice has a similar effect to that of David Attenborough when he says “in the world” in his incredibly moving tone of voice).
This lesson has been something I’ve carried with me throughout my life (so far) and it has proven to really aid me in lessening the fear of making the “wrong decision” or even worse, a mistake. We are exposed to so many different messages, commands and demands, daily, about what we should or shouldn’t do. Or worse, what we can do to make it better. It’s like everything around us is telling us to not live in the present. A friend of mine, Katrina, posted an article on her wall today that really spoke to this. Actually, today has been a pretty funny day (I will return to this point, once I get through how it came up). I went to bed last night planning out how today was going to go. I was going to wake up and take Ollie for a long, rigorous hike/run (get a real sweat on), then come home and do some push ups, clean up and begin packing & cleaning for the drive out west to Vancouver tomorrow. All of my plans came shuttering down this morning when I awoke to dark skies and a really cold room. Fall decided to make it’s entrance here in Calgary today. All of a sudden my wonderful plan was being “rained on”. That’s the thing about weather- we can have all of these plans & ideas ready to go, and then weather is like nature’s way of shaking us into the present! I love that. Now, that I think about it. Nature is literally yelling (or in today’s case, crying), “STOP PLANNING! LIVE IN THE PRESENT! STOP THINKING ABOUT THE PAST OR THE FUTURE, THERE IS ONLY NOW. LIVE!”
So, what’s a girl to do? But live in the present;) At first, I didn’t come to this realization. I had a bit of anxiety, contemplated staying in bed for a few more hours, wasting away the day because of a little rain.
I didn’t need to sleep anymore, I was well rested. & if it was sunny, I was definitely going to be outside with Ollie getting some well planned out exercise. So, I came upstairs and turned to Facebook (as you do in these (or any for that matter) situations) and have a message from one of my dear friends, Alyson. She had sent me the links to two videos: Dr. Brene Brown’s interview on Oprah (a preview) about her PhD studies on Shame as well as the link to Oprah’s interview (another preview) for Super Soul Sunday– including fantastic guests Gabrielle Bernstein, Mastin Kipp & Marie Forleo. After watching these, I took a moment and just giggled to myself (and with nature, actually) because sometimes you just have to giggle. Sometimes, when you least expect it (cause you’re focused on what is or isn’t about to happen), things just end up all happening at once, so perfectly– to bring you to reality or remind you of life & living.
Instead of doing what I may have done a month ago (something along the lines of finding myself going back and forth from the kitchen to the TV until my stomach hurt and I had to relieve myself)- I decided to take a moment, and look around me. Holy gratitude. It’s funny (in an odd way) how much power our fears and anxieties can have over us. They can make us completely blind to beauty. This is the thing about being in Vancouver that made me so upset. I was surrounded by so much beauty. Vancouver is such a stunning city. It really is a special place. But, for some reason, I had let my fears and anxieties take complete control- and it’s like I had been blinded. All I saw was fear. Being here at the ranch has made a world of difference- the quiet, stillness of the mountains. It’s just so peaceful. The thing is, today- I could’ve taken that road to blindness, once again. Proves that it’s not about where you are or aren’t. It’s always there- that peace and inner stillness. You just have to stop. Practice gratitude. & live.
I realized that rain or shine- Ollie still needed a good walk & I did still want to have a chance to visit the horses and get some fresh air. I dressed for the weather and Ollie and I went outside for our daily hike. We got totally drenched, and there were points that I was pretty cold. However, it was so therapeutic. Spending time with the horses, feeding them apples, watching them interact in the herd. This next part really made me giggle. During my walk, I ended up running into quite a few people- and having some really wonderful conversations. During my walk, I thought what if I didn’t go outside- I would’ve missed the chance to experience these interactions. The experience of just living and sharing. It really was so special to me. I feel like nature and I have been laughing together all day long. Well, for a while nature was giggling on it’s own- but I eventually got it. I’m paying attention now, I’m listening, I wasn’t before.
When I returned from my walk- I read Mastin Kipp’s The Daily Love message of the day. One of the key messages that spoke to me today was,
“One of the great mistakes is living life as an “If, then” statement. “If I get X, then I’ll be happy.” The goal is to be happy now.
So are you happy now? And if not, why not?”
Within a few minutes after reading this, and spending some time thinking about it (and reading through the comments and discussion), Katrina posted this article on her Facebook:
I had a feeling I had to read this one too. Within the first two paragraphs of the article, I was laughing, again. It’s a great easy read and a few great steps of how to bring yourself back to the present and practice gratitude. I recommend it, for sure.
In conclusion, what has been nature’s message to me today?
Be grateful & Live Now.
Thank you for the lesson & the reminder, I needed it today:)