Welcome to my Countertop!
Please, leave your old spectacles at the door, and grab a brand new, fresh set of lens!
I feel as if my whole life I have been suffering from acute ‘brain fog’ and all of a sudden, it’s like I just bought a new pair of glasses (or in terms of brain fog, I suppose- a really good form of probiotic!) What’s really shocking is I have always been so interested in food and so passionate about cooking and sharing it with everyone. Whats more- I have always been a writer, writing journals and diaries allll through my childhood, adolescence and well to be honest- all through my life (I wrote a journal entry yesterday!)
So, what has been holding me back you ask? Why do I not have 10 blogs?! Confidence is the pure and simple answer to that question. It’s all about confidence. For so long I spent more than 80% of my time telling myself that I wasn’t good enough to write a blog and that no one would be interested in what I had to say or share (what could I share that hasn’t already been shared and would probably be ‘better’ than my experience). I have definitely spent way more of my time thinking of how I could fail at something or how I am not good enough for it, instead of how I could develop my strengths and passions and follow my heart (or really, follow my gut).
The past few years have been spent soul searching, crying, picking myself back up, crying, working hard and cooking a lot. Finally, in December 2011, I decided to go for it and enroll in the winter term at Institute of Holistic Nutrition, so that I could combine my recently acquired Bachelor of Arts degree with something that would translate into a) what I love to do with b) how I can help people and c) hopefully make a dime off of!
The year has flown by, and now it’s a few days till October and I am filled with a fresh perspective on who I am, what I am capable of and how much love I have to share with the world. I’ve learnt to appreciate myself more (and accept those ‘flaws’ that I am seeing through a new lens) and I can now see there is nothing perfect about perfect. I used to love describing myself as a perfectionist, because just by saying that, I felt that people would immediately like me, like it was a desirable quality. What I’m starting to realize is that a perfectionist is someone who doesn’t allow themselves to make mistakes and ultimately isn’t allowing themselves any room for love. This person I am talking about is still me, it’s still there, and it may never leave. But, I’m okay with that. You have to start somewhere right! You can’t go from drinking 3 coffees a day to cold turkey and expect to be a happy chap (I definitely will try to not expect that from my clients)!
So, in words of Danielle La Porte “As in the beginning, so in the middle, so in the end.” Simply speaking, this new found ‘not full but getting there’- love for myself, was something that was always there. It was about re-discovering it, putting on a new set of glasses and charging ahead, in Chloe’s Conscious Kitchen!