My goodness me it’s been quite some time. So many things are on the go right now, and I’ve really missed my daily & weekly purge (writing) here at Chloe’s Countertop. It’s a bit of a double edged sword when you set goals and parameters for yourself (write a blog post 1 or 2 x a week) and then you don’t meet the goals you set. You set them for empowerment and to feel good, and when you don’t meet your own goals- it’s like a really intense kick in the gut. Why do we do this to ourselves? I can be severely guilty of this sequence of events- especially once I get into a cycle of self-destruction.
The past few months have been a great learning curve for me. A lot of things have been brought to the surface and I am understanding who I am, what my strengths are, what my weaknesses are, and what my limitations are. For me, this has really been a result of spending a lot more time with myself, living alone- and dealing with my own sh*t, by myself. One thing that I have really noticed (this may not apply to everyone, but it most certainly does to me) is that it is much easier to deal with hardships (day to day) and get yourself through it, if you are single. How does that make sense (you may be asking)? Well, I’ve noticed that in a relationship, you have someone that you can always rely on (at least, hopefully you do). So, lets say you aren’t feeling well, or don’t want to go to work, or are really hung over and have a crazy big presentation to make that morning- if you are single, you have no one to complain to or to save you. You just have to suck it up, and get yourself through it. In a relationship- you have that partner that makes you feel comfortable, and it almost makes it more difficult to suck it up and face the music. You just want to be saved. Because of this, I think I have been able to jump through more hoops than I have in the past, and as a result- grown a lot! After all, it’s during these challenges and facing pain that we tend to grow the most!
You may be wondering what ‘hardships’ I am speaking to. This varies from day-to-day events, to big things like my first catering jobs that I have successfully completed in the past few months! If you had told me a year ago that I could add catering a wedding and a large web-design showdown competition to my resume- I would’ve laughed in your face and shrugged it off. These are things that I have always dreamed of being able to do, but never really truly believed I would be able to do. It’s crazy how these things start to happen, when you allow them to. It really is quite magical- when you begin to allow your life to unfold, organically. When you start to do the things that are in alignment with who you are, and what you love- it really is like magic. Things begin to come to you, and present themselves to you- things that you would only begin to imagine in your wildest dreams! I still have bad days, most definitely. The difference is that once I pick myself up, and get myself into my work (whether it be doing a catering job, cooking, working at the school or meeting new entrepreneurs to write product/business reviews), it feels like my life is injected back into my blood stream, and I am vibrating at very high frequencies once again.
It’s when you begin to truly build things from the ground up, for yourself- that you begin to appreciate life and everything it brings. I used to spend so much of my life in misery, at home- depressed and sick. Bulimia was my way of coping with any hardships I faced. A very counterproductive method of coping that I developed in my early Middle School years. It was like, no matter how lonely I got, or stressed out or anxious I felt- as long as I had my eating disorder- I was ok & in control. A great example of the games that our minds can play on us and how powerful they can become if we feed into them, and allow them to take over. The fight between your mind and your gut can become quite the war scene. Sometimes it seems like feeding your mind can have more instant gratification, whereas following your gut has more long-term gratification. It’s choosing between the addictive quality of the mind, versus the grounding elements of following your gut (and your intuition). If you haven’t noticed it as of yet, it is a very addictive game- feeding into the games of your mind.
I’ve also noticed, that by following your gut- you become increasingly aware of the things that feed your soul & the things that drain your energy. That message, within, will continue to get louder and louder. Also, if you choose to ignore that loud voice- you’ll notice the consequences pretty quickly (you may get sick, something “unlucky” may happen). Honesty, integrity, self-love- these are all things that come from respecting that inner voice and trusting your gut. Ignore it, and that fuzziness that shows itself as indecision, resurfaces.
Another great part about spending time on your own? You become more resourceful. Instead of looking for an easy answer, or asking for help- you become better versed in finding solutions. Case in point? This morning I woke up craving some chia pudding! The problem: a) I didn’t have any almonds and b) if I did have almonds, they wouldn’t have been soaked overnight. What is a girl to do?! The easy answer would be to go to the store and buy almond milk. Why didn’t that sit well with me? Because store-bought almond milk is honestly so NOT even comparable in taste to homemade almond milk. It tastes like store-bought almond milk. Not worth it. I was about to give up on my delicious morning chia pudding, when I realized that I had hemp seeds! Five minutes later I had amazing delicious fresh organic hemp milk chilling in the fridge, and chia seeds soaking in some filtered water. Ta Da! Magic!!! It’s funny how much magic is showing up in my life lately;) So get yourself some hemp seeds and blend up a delicious batch of creamy, smooth, nutty hemp milk!
Why hemp milk? Hemp seeds are known as one of a group of foods commonly referred to as Superfoods. Hemp is a great balance of protein, essential fats, vitamims, minerals and enzymes. It is great for balancing blood sugar- and a great way to start your day. Hemp seeds are dairy free & gluten-free, and are therefore a great vegan source of protein and essential amino acids. Hemp seeds are high in plant based antioxidants and phytonutrients such as vitamin E. Also it contains essential minerals such as zinc, magnesium, calcium, phosphorous and iron. Hemp seeds are a great addition to any meal: salads, cereal, smoothies & desserts (think: vegan coconut ice cream and a slice of vegan berry pie).
- 1/2 cup organic raw hemp seeds
- 3 cups filtered water
- 2 pitted medjool dates
- 1 pinch of sea salt
- 1 tsp ground vanilla powder
- *optional 1 tsp cinnamon
- Simply add all of your ingredients into your blender, and blend on high for about 1 minute.
- Optional: use a nut milk bag to squeeze out the pulp (I didn’t feel the need to).
- Pour in a mason jar, and refrigerate for up to 4 days!